Today I realized three things:
Number one: When I’m full of energy and outside, but have no music, I begin to talk to myself. The thoughts in my mind become very vivid until my mouth starts moving and my face starts to show emotion and sometimes I start speaking aloud. And if I’m not careful, someone will see it before I can stop. As I said; weird is the new normal.
Number two: If I want to be a writer, I have to deal with rejection. Today was a perfect example for that. I didn’t win a writing competition. But the good news is, I’ll keep trying.
Number three: I’m awfully confused. Lately I’ve been realizing my passion for film, editing them, catching the right moments. I’ve even been thinking about applying for a short internship at an editing company. And then I hear about the dreadful things that happen every day and I wonder if I deserve to just do what I like, when so many don’t. And then I wonder if I can change anything at all.
I didn’t bite my nails today. It was a successful day, in that sense, but a sad one too.